Sunday not-so-fun day

Today, I found out that my ex boyfriend of 2 years is in a relationship, already.

Considering we broke up in late October, I realise some time has gone by and mayyyyybe I should be getting over this about now. However, all of my very supportive friends commend me on my strength and say that I'm going through something extremely difficult, and that it's totally normal to be going through this at this pace. I really wouldn't know, considering it's my first intense break up. Man, do these things suck!

Seeing his default picture (which throughout our entire relationship was a photo of the Incubus logo) of him and his new, brunettegirlfriend. I honestly don't know why I'm even surprised. Because considering the break up, his cheating and not to forget his lying, I knew he had some security at the end of it all. No one leaves a "happy" 2 year relationship, with a pretty little posh apartment, with a beautiful baby french bull dog, and a blond pole dancing girlfriend that's 9 years younger than you for diddly squat. He's got that security.

I nowfeel empowered, and awakened. And by awakened, I mean bitch slapped with a reality check. Did I figure he was with someone? Of course. Am I over him, and disgusted by what he's done to me? Yes, but seeing that picture just made it a little too real too soon. The thing that hurts the most is having someone do what he did, and say " It was nothing you did wrong, I just need to do this " can pretty much drive you crazy. When someone doesn't appreciate you giving your all, it's just not meant to be. Sigh.

 

To read about the end of my recent long term relationship, catch up here.
And just like that, my lifes horror stories spelled out in one little link. Who knew, -_-

I look forward to not wasting my time with some awesome, cute nerd who appreciates all of my awesomeness as well. Seeking couples like my best friend Pam and Tyler, and my dad and his fiancee Lisa, give me hope that the right geek is out there for me. Until then, I'm in a relationship with painting, pole and work.

But back to the feeling empowered part...

Tomorrow Pamburger and I will be meeting up in her living room around 6:30 AM, every day, every week, for like basically all of eternity. We will be doing Insanity video work outs, in addition to my pole fitness and HIIT training. I'm pretty much just going to beast it out, and do what makes me happy.

 

I think this experience today has been a blessing in disguise, and I'll use this motivation towards bettering myself and finding someone who appreciates what I have to offer.

 

 

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