Beginning 2013

I’d say that ‘they should make a class to prepare you for life as you get older’, but that’d be redundant considering that is what actual school is for. To prepare you for life. The truth of it all is, you never can have the truth of life instilled upon you unless it’s by your own will. My dad probably told me 100 times ‘what to do’ and ‘what I should do’ between me being 17 and 19, and did I ever listen? No. I had to wait until I’m 22 and freshly dumped to feel the bitter sweet bitch slap of reality. Which really, is less ‘bitter’ and more so ‘sweet’.

Aaaaaand now you’re thinking “Wait back up, ‘Less bitter, more sweet? Break up? Cheating man whore?’!”-that’s right. Breakups SUCK. Suuuuuuuck suck suck. I can honestly say to the man who once welcomed my love, then casually gave it away, that although he’sprobably going to hell I remain thankful for the fire he lit under my ass. Being in love with a finger waving silver spoon was good for me at the time, hell, he settled me down when I was 21 and 22, the ages when people are sure you’re going to let loose and make mistakes. He helped round me into a more professional young lady. But in the end, I’m left alone. Okay, I’m notcompletely alone, I have Daisy meow. So until my patience with my fur babies wears thin, here are my personal goals to take into deep consideration while living 2013 to its fullest potential

List5  things I wish I could change about myself in the new year

1.)Procrastinating

I procrastinate all the time. Whether it be laundry or even a blog post – I even did it just now with this email to myself-WOW. This draft has been sitting in my inbox for two. Damn. Days. I need to make a conscious effort to acknowledge my goals and intentions, and either perform/execute them THAT instant or document them in my calendar to be done in the near future and set a reminder for myself. Maybe even a note pad, too. Tied to my neck. By an invincible string.

2.) More Self-Love

Bubble baths are my traditional way of making myself take a moment to settle down and relax. It’s really important to acknowledge all the things we accomplish and do for ourselves just to achieve normality, whatever that means. I think as adults, and parents (which I’m NOT), we overlook our own personal needs and wants to see straight toward the goal, focusing on little in-between.

The same could be said about men’s views towards foreplay and sex.... :-|

3.) Be more girly

By ‘be more girly’, I mean engage my (inner) voice as a woman. I should take more pride in doing my hair, make up and getting dressed in the morning. Unlike men, I can create myself to represent whatever I feel like in the morning simply by the way I style myself. That should be considered a privilege and taken full advantage of. Although my goal is to take my ‘image’ into more careful consideration, I still want to do it cost-conveniently. I can still feel beautiful without having a coach purse and $200 moisturizing cream.

When I think of my kinda woman, I envision a confident, appealing woman. She appears to be ageless, hair and skin color are unnecessary to note. Dressed in clothing tight enough to tell shes a woman, but loose enough to show she’s a lady as Marilyn Monroe tells it. When I picture the woman I want to be, I see velvet and chiffon, with black rimmed glasses and pearl accessories. But when I look down, I see TJ Maxx and Hannah Montana.

4.) Eat more whole foods

As I age, I have become more and more aware of things health and beauty related. Lately, I’ve taken into consideration I need to be wearing a daily moisturizer with SPF in the ingredients. This is important so my skin doesn’t absorb any unwanted UV rays causing wrinkles, leading to potential skin cancer and confirmed ugliness. It has come to my attention, about two years ago (whoops), that I should be eating 90% whole foods and leave the 10% for cheat days (for my own personal sanity and the health of others around me). I’m under the impression if I just shove my face with spinach and beans forever until the day I die that I’ll simply remain looking 22… let’s see if it works.

5.) Enhance my lexicon

Enough said-Now just to say itbetter… Hmm. How will I make it happen? Maybe select a word a day, or 5 words a week, to focus on and include in a blog post and/or email? Suggestions?!

Life resolutions are weird. Life is weird. As a kid, your wide eyes and open ears absorb and marinate every little nugget of information you come across, creating this big collage of memories and experiences. It’s your parents job to make you aware and introduce you to these experiences, but it’s our job as the child to perceive them correctly. ‘What the hell is she talking about?’, I’ll get to it, don’t worry… I guess what I mean to say is, no one in life is going to tell you how to perceive opportunities and experiences you may encounter in this life.

A prime example is my mother’s passing. Although it’s sad and I miss her laughter and presence every day, I perceive that traumatizing experience as a stepping stone along the path of my young adulthood. I miss her all the time, but it’s my own job to make sure I’m in the right state of mind and use my experiences as fuel for my future. It’s my biggest responsibility, to make sure I use my energy in a way that will help me excel towards reaching my goals in this new year. I hope everyone else is in charge of their goals as well and takes charge of their lives today!